Light's Out
It was the second time I was a refuge
I learned to hold it down
But I turned the lights out
I wouldn't turn them on
So you ran, and ran, and ran, and ran
And only kept running on
We shoveled your car out of the snow
Two litres of coffee spilt in the backseat
Then waved for a taxi
Till both of my hands froze off
Saw my blood spill all over the snow
Then went back to the party
It'd only just started
And I learned the hard way
That I should have shared what I saw
It was the second time I was a refuge
I learned to hold it down
But I turned the lights out
I wouldn't turn them on
So you ran, and ran, and ran, and ran
And only kept running on
We shoveled your heart from the snow
But my hands were frozen
We didn't know then
But you couldn't hold them
Because your hands were full
I took the blame every time it went wrong
And it twisted my tongue so
I couldn't say no
So how would you then know
So how could you ever, ever have known
It was the second time I was a refuge
I learned to hold it down
But I turned the lights out
I wouldn't turn them on
So you ran, and ran, and ran, and ran
And only kept running on
Fake Blood
One day I will forget all about your love
Because dementia runs in my family, brain and my blood
There is a hard cut to a barren plot where my childhood home
Is getting built on, but it's so odd - the feeling of not being born
When I come home
There is no one
Every word I say
Turn into a brick
That stack into a dividing wall
I try not to
Think too much about the place I'll end up
But it's eating a bite out of every moment I've got
Please just listen
I'm trying to speak but I stopped and forgot
Don't look at me with tears in your eyes 'cause your smile's all I got
One day I will forget all about your love
Because dementia runs in my family, brain and my blood
There is a hard cut to a barren plot where my childhood home
Is getting built on, but it's so odd - the feeling of not being born
Instead
I could say "Don't leave!"
I could say "Don't go!"
I could say "Don't leave!"
Instead I stand still
And don't say anything
And instead you let me leave
And instead I don't say anything
Like you're used to
Now it's burning how you'd like to
And it's burning how you tried to
And it's roaring through the trees
And it's soaring through the concrete
How you'd try to make amends
Oh, how I tried to make it bend
Now you know where it's going
And now you know where it's going